I’m almost out
And I can’t go back
Can’t go back…
Back to when I was
Rocking those Kangol hats
When I lost my hair
It may never grow back
I had one foot in
I had one foot out
Smelled rats in the place
So I had my doubts
Good kid
Fad city
Let me see what this life was all about
I tried
I lied
And it hurt my mouth
Told the doc my brain was damaged
And he sent me elsewhere
So I could talk it out
Back and forth with my mother
All we heard were screams and shouts
Is this all this life was all about
I had my doubts
I’m almost out
And I can’t go back
Can’t go back…
Back to when I was
Trapped and the sun was hot
Went for my money
And I may never make it back
That’s how you know
My mind was black
Thinking
Save them [with good intentions]
And have them hate me back
You know you could die from that
Or get locked up
With no one to write you back
I should’ve been afraid
But what kind of word was that
The kind that’s made for [fraidy] cats
With no dreams of a thousand stacks
Didn’t work out
But what doesn’t work once
Means I should just try it back
Means I might relapse
One of the reasons
You may never see me relax
Because I’m almost out
And I can’t go back
Can’t go back…
Back to when I was
Searching for a better way
Losing my mind
And I may never gain it back
Always wondering
When is it going to be my turn
How much more do I have to earn
Maybe there’s more that I still won’t learn
Maybe it’s because I have rules that live by
The lady by my side
Says that makes me a good guy
This is the part where I should lie
Tell you I’m one of those from the hood guys
Make it look like
In my past I might have took life
So I when I touched down
They were like leaves on a tree
Shook right
The money
Is all I want from the crook life
But everything comes with it
If I use it to give myself my turn
Give me everything I yearn
And my eyes they burn
For every page I turn
In this book like
I’m almost done
And I can’t turn back
Can’t turn back…